This essay She Walks With Angels has a total of 956 words and 4 pages.
She Walks With Angels
Few things in our lives will ever prepare us emotionally, for the death of a
loved one. The sadness, anger, and comfort that fills the heart cannot be
imagined. It was within the last five minutes of my mothers life, that I
realized that I was not prepared. As I stood on the side of the bed and watched
her gasp for precious air, my emotions took control. My first thoughts became
those that were filled with sadness. I felt deep sadness and regret, and
wondered if my mother ever knew how much I idolized her. Did I really ever
return the love and care that she gave me? My eyes saw sadness when looking at
the lifeless figure of wrinkled skin that my mother had become. This by no means
was the same woman who used to wrestle with me and my brothers, and beat us all.
No way could it be the same strong woman, that used to play tackle football with
me when I was little. I remember one time, when I was about 8 or 9 years old, I
came into the house crying. My mother asked me what was wrong. I told her that
my two older brothers were ganging up on me in tackle football. She asked the
usual mother questions, and when she found out that they had chosen the teams as
them against me, I quickly had a new teammate. She grabbed my hand smiling and
then we marched outside, with her striding like a defensive lineman going up to
receive her most valuable trophy award. As soon as my brotherís saw her come
around the corner of the house, with my hand in hers, they knew that it was a
whole new ballgame. Now my mother was no giant by any means. She was 5í1"
tall and about 140 pounds, but on the first play of scrimmage, I hiked the ball
to my mother and she went around the right end running over both my brothers.
Not only did she run them both over, but then she even taunted them with the
ball. Both my brothers got up holding various body parts and cringing in pain.
Though she told them that she didnít mean to hurt them, we all knew the truth.
It was only a little retribution for me, and to let them know that she didnít
approve of their unfair tactics. On the ensuing kickoff, my brother Wes tried to
block my mother, it was a foolish attempt. My mother tossed him aside like a hay
bale being thrown in the loft, and then proceeded to make my other brotherís
body become one with the ground. That would be the last play of the game, as
both my brothers started whining about how unfair the teams were. It was just
what she had wanted to make them understand. As my teammate and I went into the
house, I had gained a new appreciation of her. It was sad to see what used to be
a vibrant, dark- haired, attractive woman, turn into a living corpse void of any
coherent thoughts. As I processed these thoughts of sadness I soon became angry.
I was mad! Why in the hell did I have to lose my mother, my teammate? "Why
god, why her?" God had chosen the one person that had been a steady and very
influencing factor in my life to join his band of angels. All my beliefs, values
and ethics were strong willed from the hand of mom. I was mad at the fact that
my mother was being consumed, eaten, by a disease that didnít play fair. My
anger only grew worse when I started to think of the pain and suffering that she
must be enduring or had endured. Why does she have to lie her and struggle to
live? Why the hell isnít the brain smart enough to know when to shut of the
autonomic response and rest in peace? As my mothersí breathing increased even
faster, I started to feel comfort in the fact that this senseless act of living,
even when dead, would soon be over. I took comfort in the fact that this body
would soon take itsí rightful place beneath the dirt, and also in the fact
that my dad would be able to start living again. He really was the one who
suffered. My father had watched his wife of 37 years go from a strong-willed